Monday, February 14, 2022
RV Nomad Self Care on Valentine’s Day
This previous week was blur of racing out of California (but hiking in Joshua Tree first) after a bad breakup from my boyfriend of a year, seeking attention and distraction on social media, selling my motorcycle and simply emotional ups and downs because it’s THAT time of the month.
I barely ate, which is not like me. I did eat well when I did – roasted veggies, salads, homemade soup, etc – but I also had a pint of ice cream for dinner one night.
I’ve also been experiencing inability to fall asleep. Note, I’m a very good sleeper. I rarely have trouble falling asleep, staying asleep and I get 8-9 hours a night. Right now I’m running on 4-5 hours a night for a week.
It’s all not good.
Yet for some odd reason I’m content. Almost happy. Maybe it’s relief.
I left a man that was not right for me. I wish him happiness and love someday but not from me. I loved him dearly but it all fell apart – for me.
I’m content because I’m relieved to let him go to start to live the life and person that I truly am.
I guess it just takes a while to readjust your mind, body and soul for huge changes, we were together for a year, in the RV, pretty much 24/7. To go from having a companion to solo again is a hard reality to face, especially out here. I can’t just go over to my girlfriend’s home for a beer and tears. I’m alone. Of course, I contacted my girlfriends and got a virtual shoulder to cry on. And I know Instgram helped fill the void of having someone around all the time to talk to.
It’s been a week since we split. The weather is amazing here on the western side of Arizona. And I’m healing.
Enough bad food and whisky to drown the hurt. No more late night Instagram sessions that interupt my sleep cycle. And no more pity parties.
I’m getting outside today. I’m going to distract myself with healthy options like hiking, dancing to music, riding my bike, blogging and crochet work.
It’s time to begin to release the pain and be Allie again!
Happy Trails!
